Connecting local responses around the world
I need a lot of time to grabs and to understand the essence from my experiences as coach of CLC. What could I do as a person to reveal what I believe on thinking and working into doable activities that inspire others of beauty of life and beauty of understanding. No longer work as a professional on reproductive health, population and gender it makes me uneasy somehow. I almost forget that I personally Salty and able to learn and work on the new issue and new circumstances, but in fact I feel unsatisfying with my self. there must be a mistake what I believe. what is that. Why I feel useless in this new job and position? I contribute nothing!
One day, groups of students invited me to accompany them to develop plan of action after they finished one session of training. I felt on fire and spirit-full since I will speak in front of people and inspires them with my experience and skill to develop output base planning. I told them what should and should not they do as a counselors. At almost two and half hours all audiences were in silent listening to me. at the end of session they worked in a group and develop three months action plan. Every body were happy with that process. As well as me, but then ooopss...why I'm not happy with my new job? should I become a preacher first and telling people what should they do to make me feel a success and make me happy? there must be something wrong with my thinking. What is that?
For almost three months I learned DRR - disaster risk reduction - from my team members. I kept listening and tried to understand every single words and concept they shared. They developed terms of references of various activities we initiated and I shared the terms of reference to our implementing partners. All run smoothly until one day I feel that my capacity of listening was lessen. I felt unconformable because I need to be listened and in the same time I have no sufficient knowledge and skill on DRR to be shared. My initiative is inappropriate still. it made me down, really. However, in another side of my hearth and thought I believe that I am SALTY enough to cope with this situation. What make me uneasy?
When I write this blogs; I just remember one think, to be a couch is not about presenting SALT and CLC on the class room session. Listening is the peak of SALTINESS it self, and I forgot it since I was wrongly perceived that need to be listened means to be considered as the only sources who can influence such a condition. For me, to be well informed about one issue is a must that enable me understand what is understanding. The new issues should be digest first before it becomes my new knowledge with which I can share.
I found my own formula, even not new I believe, but it rings the bell on me: listening - warm-heart - modesty - digest - understanding - sharing - then transformation into more happy person.
Greeting from cloudy Bandung - Indonesia